My Confession: I was a sinner. On a regular basis, I cheated when people weren’t looking (and sometimes even when they were), I lied to save my reputation or to get out of perceived punishment, I dishonored my parents and in-laws by being rude and disrespectful to them, I stole money from God by not being ungenerous and forsaking opportunities to give to Him, I lusted after the opposite sex with my wandering eyes, I craved attention for my own glory, I saw myself as better than others in areas I felt I was competent in, I wasted my time playing video games and watching movies that gain me neither godliness or motivation toward becoming Christ-like, I chased after those hobbies and pursuits that are excessive beyond what I really need to recreate, I was a glutton who lacked self-control when eating or drinking, I chased my own dreams apart from paying attention to God and what He wanted for me, I loved ministry more than Jesus, I was prayerless for most of my day to day life, I sought my own comfort and pleasure rather than an intimate relationship of prayerful dependence on God, I slandered my bosses, stole from them in the form of taking home office supplies and never repaying back, I played music for audiences for the sake of expanding my own glory and stealing praise and attention from God, I gave my fill to course joking and wrongful speech, I dressed too casual and at times immodest, I relied upon myself to get me through hard times, I was bitter toward my brother to the point of wanting to physically (and spiritually) murder him, I hated children because they cried and were out of control all the time, I was undisciplined in my work ethic, I offended my wife, neglected my children’s spiritual needs by not leading them in family devotions, and I craved whatever appetite that pleased me in the moment.
The Lord Jesus Christ is my God, Saviour and Master. He made me a Saint. “‘I’ have been crucified with Christ and it is no longer ‘I’ who lives but Christ lives in me” (Galatians 2:20). He made me holy, He gave me His Holy Spirit (Eph. 1:13-14), He has traded in the “old me” with Christ–the “new me,” He is the One in control of my life and circumstances now (was He not before? I just recognize His Sovereignty now), He helps me lead my family spiritually by holding daily family devotions, He helps me love my wife as He loves me (Eph. 5:25), He gives me self-control which enables me to eat appropriate portions and to keep my eyes for my wife only, He battles on my behalf when I earnestly seek Him for direction and wisdom, He protects my family in many ways, He is the center-point for ministry whom I perform for, He is the best Boss in the universe and worthy of total praise and admiration and hard work, He kills my laziness and gets me to work hard and well, He caused a great love and compassion for children, causing me to desire as many children as He gives us, He controls my appetites and reminds me when they get excessive, He reminds me to confess to others and seek their forgiveness when I trespass against them, He carries me through hard times and keeps me close.
When I was a sinner, I thought I ran my life. It was all about me. Now that He has made me a holy one–a saint, He lives in me and glorifies Himself, who is worthy of it. It’s all about Him!
As a man, I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
As a family, I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
As a church (a family of families), I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
As a city, I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
As a nation, I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
As a world, I want the Lord Jesus Christ to be in control and to be praised.
It’s getting late… 11:58pm. I want to reflect more on this and revise when I’m able to do so more coherently. Good night! More to come soon.